Neolithic (2)

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Rock trail

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31 July 2012

Some visitors are colliding fish, but some are sperms and stay.

I feel suddenly my Neolithic lifetime and message by the river, with the impression of axes to grind.   In the Neolithic life I knew about the heart of stone and flinty chip flake vein and water, it sang in my blood.   When I make an edge or point, it is a jewel.   It converges facets and ridges like a mountain, an emerald, a diamond.  It is a weapon.  Its target is my food and fire.   Because those facets flow and curve along the stone’s yielding paths, it is a Himalaya peak.   It is warm, it flows and throbs.   From its chafing with another, flies the spark;  the primordial hearth-fire.   I cradle in my hands the smoking tinder, like a birds nest.  As a human I carve and erode stone, like the sea does, but quicker.

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Sands

Conventional gems in the jewellers trade, are trapped in little velvet cases and sold into marriage.

The Stone of Life in Sadhana is chipped, sculpted, chiselled.   As the teeming decades pass, the Himalayan blade emerges, translucent, delicate, unadorned.

The Sword of Sadhana is a pencil being sharpened: alchemy’s immersion through fire and flow.

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River falls

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My adventure invites fellow travellers.  I am a poet, an artist and a seer.  I welcome conversation among the PHILO SOFIA, the lovers of wisdom.

This blog is  a vehicle to promote my published work – The Sacred India Tarot (with Rohit Arya, Yogi Impressions Books) and The Dreamer in the Dream – a collection of short stories (0 Books) – along with many other creations in house.  

I write, illustrate, design and print my books.   Watch this space.

Robert – Popeye the Sailor Man

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From “Robert Adams” group on facebook –

“Many people call me, they want me to talk about this, or to change some of the things I do, or to do this, or to do that.

If I were a minister or a philosopher and rehearsed the program, and had a written text to go by, then there can be changes.

But I am what I am, and that’s what I am, I’m Popeye the sailor man.

I do not plan anything.

I do not have any rehearsals.

This body just does what it does.

What you see is what you get, nothing more and nothing less.”

– Robert Adams –

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Robert:  It has no end (1997, a posthumous portrait)

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‘Student: I think part of the problem is, speaking for myself of course, is that I don’t believe it will happen. I feel it happens just to a favored few, like Jesus or Buddha or yourself. What’s the sense of trying it if it’s not going to happen?

R: Well, if you don’t feel it’s not going to happen, what can you do? Go see a movie. (students laugh) You’ve got to realize you are greater than you think, and you’ve got the same power within you as everybody else does. It may appear to be asleep, but as you work on yourself, work on yourself, work on yourself, you will awaken it. And one day it will become stronger than you are and take you over completely and you’ll be free. But you’ve got to keep on working on yourself and stop putting yourself down. That’s the worst thing you can do is to put yourself down. That’s blasphemy because you’re putting God down.

Think of yourself as a higher person, love yourself, worship yourself, bow to yourself. You are greater than you think.’

Robert Adams ♥

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myself ear Robert

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A post from thewondrousdharma.com today:

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we’re liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

~ Marianne Williamson

This is from Marianne’s 1992 book, ‘A Return to Love’. It has been erroneously attributed to Nelson Mandela’s inaugural speech.

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Vessel, Spine, Mooncrab

“Let us form a Vessel”

In my mind today, with Popeye the Sailor Man, is this sketch (1987) of being the boat – spine and ribs.   Down the hatch …  The vessel is a taut membrane to the pressure of the deep – a parchment or papyrus for the pen.  Of course, the wisdom arrives from the deep as looking-glass script, and we automatically convert it!

Awareness tackles what comes along – sharp rocks, islands, lighthouses, sharks, sunshine, storms.  It is jaunty and nautical.  Down in the hold is a sense of gold – space of the boat’s shell, with along it, the curved flourishes of the hardwood keel.  The keel is six inches thick, and it goes right down into the deep.   In the golden space of the hold is all the boat’s furnishing of life, en passant … but I do not see it.   The keel is spine, the golden space is breath.

Now I am the sailor man!   The hands are because I was playing the piano, touching keys, practicing Cesar Franck.  The claws – oars of lateral sensitivity – each side, are my Moon-Crab sign.   We travel space through day and night, the deep.

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Falling into Hermetic Self

and this is the dawn …

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Body tao tree

… and the Tree by the well.  All is well.

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My adventure invites fellow travellers.  I am a poet, an artist and a seer.  I welcome conversation among the PHILO SOFIA, the lovers of wisdom.

This blog is  a vehicle to promote my published work – The Sacred India Tarot (with Rohit Arya, Yogi Impressions Books) and The Dreamer in the Dream – a collection of short stories (0 Books) – along with many other creations in house.  

I write, illustrate, design and print my books.   Watch this space.

The Sacred India Tarot: Creation of the Devil Card

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THE CREATION OF THE SACRED INDIA TAROT

CARD 15:  The Devil – Mara with his Three Daughters

This is part of the Sacred India Tarot series, which is usually published by aryayogi.wordpress.com.   Due to a tech. problem in India, and because I found a paragraph which needed a small revision, I am publishing it also, here.   These entries – as can be seen in the previous one on Ganga – contain much process work as each concept developed transoceanically.   Additionally, life and dreams at night, fed in their  data.

Later in the deck, 6 of Pentacles depicts the Buddha’s Enlightenment.  The demon Mara makes a reappearance, trying to distract him with his raw power:  the Buddha keeps firm contact with the ground.

This cropped image from 6 of Pentacles card, of Mara and the Buddha, is relevant to the material of card 15:

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Detail from SITA 6 of Pentacles

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Here first, is an image Rohit sent me, heading his Notes; and under it is my first sketch for the ideas in this Arcanum.

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Rohit’s Notes:

A very difficult card, as India does not have any such notion as the Devil.  It was a great struggle to resist using a Horned One equivalent, as the Celtic packs do, or a Pan equivalent.

However, Buddhist Mythology does have an Evil One – Mara.  Since the pack is an Indian mythology pack, and the Buddha is one of the greatest figures in the culture, I felt we can use this.  Mara plays the same role in the enlightenment of the Buddha, as Satan the Adversary does, when Jesus is in the desert, tempting and then trying to frighten him.

The illustration we will send of the blue demon, is a good place to start.  Please keep the skull headgear.  The costumes of the Balinese dancers are also a good way to depict him.  I am tired of the wild skins and hairy features of the standard packs.  “The Prince of Darkness is a gentleman.”  I forget who said that, but the suave, dangerous aspect of the Devil is what we need.  This card should not be overdone, as we are going to use this again in the suit of Pentacles.

What we need here, is the Devil holding his three daughters and a couple of men, in the standard manner, with chains around their necks, all the human figures to be nude, as is the typical custom in depicting the chains of the Devil.  He should be given a vicious looking sword to hold too, the other hand having a musical instrument of some sort.  The environment should not be depicted as forbidding and hopeless.  The power of the Devil is precisely his offer of a high standard of living and comfort.

Can you communicate a sort of serpentine fluidity to the man?  His figure should dominate the card, but it should not stand in the typical still and straight divine posture.  The Devil is polymorphous, too easily swayed by circumstances, too eager to seize immediate advantage to appreciate the long-term advantage of standing firm.  An air of instability will convey the essential hollow nature of his power.

The Devil is in Jungian terms, the challenge of the Shadow, and is in that sense an extremely useful and necessary part of the human imagination.

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Jane’s Process Notes – 15 September 2002

These are quite lengthy extracts again from my workbook.  The “Devil” card  is “made for artists” because through  realizing what we project, we strip down the effigies of our bossy Saint.  We meet and are challenged here by the raw subconscious material, and we are as putty!   Through this Arcanum, as we learn to see it, gleams truth.   Rudra enters the picture again:

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Arrived at Caroline’s to meet Sparkie in a happy and curious-about-it frame, after a large and excellent calzone-pizza with A and two glasses of wine;  and left there later, weary and depressed.  It is very tiring to have to sit through this kind of thing in a hot padded room, late in the evening.  My bitchings about Satsang givers are not quite on the mark, so I shall refrain.   I liked Sparkie’s earnest lady helpers and the Teutonic gang with the electronics and the camera – the electronics broke down half way through and nearly started a fire.   That was rather a relief, because the soporific new-age-zen background tinkling, though at first quite pleasant, was getting on my nerves.  Sparkie didn’t attempt any rev-ups with me, though he really pulled poor A out on the mat, for “the Advaita movement in England”, because there wasn’t really anyone else there to work with.  So in the end, I chipped in, to support Alan, and said there was a movement a few years ago, with everyone going to everybody, but now they’ve all found their teachers among themselves and got married. 

Which basically implied – you’re superfluous, mate.

My impression is that Sparkie, a blond and bearded trans-atlantic Englishman whose home is now Germany, is used to talking now in German to Germans, and had a hard job connecting to Londoners … who prefer something a little more tongue in cheek.  In his view, the Western “spiritual tradition” meeting the East, is modern psychology, and he “does not dismiss politics”.  The opinions are his, and himself-centered.  His German ladies adore him – this is natural: devotion on the spiritual path.

I should try to go to things un-comparitively, but for one schooled with the un-person-centered vitality of Kabbalah and the delicious honesty and humour of its teachers, this little gathering was a tomb.   There was a table there, covered with dazzling piles of tapes and books and gleaming photos of Papaji messengers, with among them, poor patient Ramana, and even Anandamayi Ma … presented as icons, swept into this personality cult.

These musings lead me usefully into my rather heavy work for the coming week – India Tarot Devil, Tower and Star, to be guinea-pigged through my subconscious into the light.   For instance, Key 15 the Devil is in the western Mysteries, the artist’s card par excellence.  It covers the whole field of projectile-prakriti into enclosure and includes my recent “Initiation”, drawing portraits of inner plane Masters:  “Ah Netr Ankh”, Hail to the Lord of Life.  The enclosure is a projection of the Infinite into small forms of separateness, definition, solidity.  It puts the illusion into glass and makes it hard to touch.  (What an interesting sentence!)

Serious and be-scattered insomnia last night … I became aware of a whitish, fiery and incomplete figure in my deeps, with none of its limbs defined or ‘finished’ – a kind of fury, but objectively seen.  A rapid visual association brought up my drawing of Wild Rudra – glimpsed yesterday when sorting out my old drawings.

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This drawing has already been used in our Notes on SITA, the Creation of Rudra: The Fool.  Here he is again, now occupying my Shadow.  That’s what it is, inside!  That is the spike of nameless angry heat, which destroys my rest and equilibrium when slipping towards sleep into the fleece of an idea or outlined shape.  It is Rudra the Wild Hunter before the dawn of the Vedas, the one that roars, Rudra the Uncreate who with his bow and arrow shot into Bison Prajapati’s balls just as Prajapati was about to penetrate his own daughter Ushas the Dawn  (India Tarot’s Star).  The seed fell to the ground instead, and became the gap of space and time and separateness within the unity of the Uncreate.  (Stella Kramrisch, The Presence of Siva).  It became cattle, days and nights, destinies and Earth.   Yes!   The Devil – the raw-unconscious – reacts my nameless, sharp, zig zag feeling –  the falsehood of any sort of boundary.

Boundaries there must be, in drawing;  in the Yetzirah/Assiyah relationship (formation and the material world) and in the monitoring of empathies;  but in truth, boundaries there are not, and the outline and the manufacture of boundaries arouses Rudra’s rage against the Devil’s comfort zone, and artist’s bane.   Try to distinguish the level, so that the higher doesn’t get mixed so drainingly into the lower.

Saw too, in this Presence of Rudra, the lightning-flash energy.  I was at ease when limbs, hands and feet were kept open and unfinished, and I was un-eased when they were enclosed and “made”.  Let it break open anew, and smile!  Recalled also (subconscious efficiently delivers) that Rudra in Rohit’s India Tarot is The Fool, the Innocent Before Creation, the wild fury in creation’s trap.   I understand now why they wanted another Rudra-Fool, more terrible and wild;  so I drew the spiky dark lightning colours in the skies around his wild dance, descending through it into earth and mountain through his toe.

The Tarot Fool – eastern & western versions

The Fool in the Adytum (western Mysteries) emanates from Kether, the untrapped potential in the lightning flash before creation:  the flower in the bud.   How wonderful to bridge the traditions, their Light and Shadow as One.  How wonderful to be shown and to know, with my very being.

I held in focus this flickering and undefined presence – practicing a teaching of Francis Lucille’s: to include strange, unvoiced and unlined sensations, let them expand and inform … and at last fell heavily asleep because suddenly it was 7.45 and morning … and had my recurring nightmare of being “on Retreat” with my soul/spiritual group, and being alienated from it like a scapegoat.   I’m afraid my inner Rudra is always spoiling my security routines.  Never mind.  I’m glad to know my Rudra and be shown, like when Kali passed through here.

Yesterday afternoon, something lovely happened.  While tippexing the master copy of SE for the printers, I listened to the first four tapes of Lady Chatterley’s Lover … Lawrence portrays a certain discordant 1920s tedium, as read in Margaret Hilton’s schoolgirlie voice – and then at last Connie gets together with her gamekeeper in the wood on the second side of the fifth tape, and utter beauty against all hope, blossoms:  the full flood of erotic poetry unleashed.

It is a peculiar delight to be free from personal desire, and entranced by the pure beauty and primordial pulse of that erotic description;  to share in the event both male and female, with and as the subtle body.  Because I am free, it is “I AM”, without any buffers, as deep and strong as the sea.   In a pioneering spirit, Lawrence was the supreme and perhaps unique poet of the sexual act in our time:  its all-ecompassing nature and its fleetingness.  I listened and heard and was and smiled.  IT IS THE SAME AS MUSIC.

Fancy going along to Sparkie’s satsang after that!  It’s hardly fair.

 

16 September 2002

Slept much better, after restful day completing SE for the printers, listening to Lady C’s L, and managing to clean the kitchen … and had another Earthquake dream.  (See Notes on SITA: Death II – Kali).  This time, it was a two-storey house out in the west country somewhere.  I woke with the impression fast fading.  Again I wondered how neighbouring buildings had fared.  The ground reeled, and the house perhaps tipped a little, and dropped down at least its own height, into a gulf of silence;  yet no gulf of earth had opened and swallowed it.  The house was as before, with an outside and an inside.  I went to the bathroom downstairs, and there were no cracks in the walls,  and then I woke. 

It seems that oceanic waves pass through my marrow:  the vesica-piscean ripples, as the work of the soul ventures into … higher Yetzirah, or union.  It is also the alchemical Dragon (kundalini).   When I go out from my island into the sea, there are waves surrounding it, like a reef to surmount first.   I used to dream of seeing them.

… I have heard almost all of the 14 tapes of Lady C’s L.  Of course, the power and discovery of that first time, is unrepeatable.  It is the tragic and comic human paradox we have, that sex which touches infinity, creates its own destroyer, transforming to the weary weary linear story of man and woman and brat and do-you-love-me.  One knows – “tha’ knows” – already, and doesn’t want the story.  There is only ever the one time:  kiss it silent.

DHL – an early schoolbook sketch

…  Thinking of DHL, and the great black blight of the collieries, iron and money upon old England, of which he wrote with such passion and anger; and in those days saw and felt the destruction of humanity – this felt so perennial, that I stopped on my bike and made a note:

The interface of humanity with history, has always been that brutalizing agony upon kind Earth.

The difference in our humanity nowadays, is that more of us are involved with history.

That is to say:  seeing history as a blind, mechanical, unsolving force.  And seeing humanity – real humanity – as that which, like within flowers, manages to remain uncrushed.  Would Lawrence nowadays, recognize us as human?  And is not the turning inward and the flourishing of the esoteric wisdom, but a counterpoising accompaniment to ugliness? 

The Catherine-wheel of Cruelty and ugliness was always so, maybe in olden times more intensely so, but in smaller localities.  The tread of the wheel is in these present times wider.  At the same time, a number of specific cruelties become obsolete.  And after WW1 and WW2, no young lad goes lightly to war;  but also there is child pornography, and there is the waste of soviet-regime excrement upon the poisoned lands of eastern Europe, etc.  I think deep down, that I am not involved with ‘history’.   ‘Involved’ is also “caught up in”.  But I see.

 

17 September 2002

I asked for the Spirit Guardian’s help, and was reminded to touch base inwardly – my own heart-swept chamber.  One simply must deal with uninvited pests here.  One can see beyond them into Siva, one can dissolve them in the inner truth, point the ankh at them to sizzle them, laugh at them.  What, you again?

Today I have to draw the devil for India Tarot.  At the “Table Round” (a meditation), I saw clearly how the shadow side of this Key alienates and separates me:  how it becomes cut-out boring thoughts which are not mind, but mischievously say they are, and I feel outcast from sacred gatherings – exactly the dismissal from Eden into anatomy.

At the same time, the Grail shone bright, and practicing the Zodiacal colour spectrum around it, I returned to Capricorn, whose colour indigo, is the devil’s own, and whose sign I am – the creative Key of bind and loose;  creative usurpation, yet manifestation;  surfaces.  I went round to Key 15 and flipped his pentacle and pulled his beard.  His red popish eyes and pompous gesture of authority melted.  The chains fell off Adam and Eve.  Liberation always, is in my heart, and the old Goat is curiously the key to it.  He presents himself perversely, to be seen through.  He has no sense of humour at all.  He is also puritanical – behind my effort to keep all my thoughts pure of irrelevant genitalia or the gutter press, when in my citadel, and spank them if they are not.

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Arcanum 15, from Jane’s Hermetic Tarot deck. 

“Baphomet” is an effigy or persistent thought-form;  but reversal of this word produces TEMOHPAB – Templi Omnium Hominum Pacis Abbas: the priest of the temple of peace for all humanity.   Much interior work consists of transforming our negative modes into their opposites – releasing the trapped creative energy as from a coiled up spring.   Through this Arcanum or “Key”, we arrive also at a deeper understanding of our sexuality.  The sum of 15 is 6 – the Tarot Lovers – Adam and Eve – who give each other truth, space and clear seeing.  As the man and woman in 15 become mature, enriching the self-conscious and sub-conscious dialogue in ourselves, the chains slip off them;  the Lovers are no longer bound by false belief.

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Arcanum 6 from Jane’s Hermetic Tarot deck.  The Archangel is Hermetic Rafael, the healing face of God

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18 September 2002

I began India Tarot’s No.15 – The Devil.  It is going quite well;  it is based on Mara who tempted Buddha, and should therefore suggest a Prince-of-Darkness imitation of the Buddha.  He is glamorous.  His right upper arm, waving the vicious sword, is very powerful;  the left hand playing the veena, is refined.  With the other two hands, he holds like reins, the chains of his three daughters and two men, all in their separate MATTER cocoons. He is skilled in the arts and other business.

He sits in lotus posture, has an enormous dark head and red eyes, and looks thoroughly unreliable.  I remembered he’s the father of lies, and the Alternative Guru – “God, as the ignorant conceive Him to be.”

But also, he is the supreme Key for the artist, and as Rohit describes Jungianly, the indispensable Shadow of real creativity.  His strength is where he cultivates his double nature.  He binds his daughters and their lovers to his theatrical and charismatic ability to stand in front of the light, and whirls his cloak like wings:  operatic passion.  It is best to see the joke in him.

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Sacred India Tarot – card 15: The Devil:  Mara with his Daughters

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And now here is someone behind that, whom I drew at the same time.  He emerged through the woods in a dream. I call him “Art the Gardener”, or maybe “Hiawatha”.

18 September 2002:   “He issurrounded by young trees and leans on a stick or spade, looking at me;  and the branch-patterns formed a heart around his upper torso and head.  He wears a cloth around his middle, Egyptian worker style … he might have elven ears somewhere.  He is somebody in my “library” or “gallery”, and I am glad I have drawn a picture of him.  There is a lot of roughly hatched deep blue sky showing through the taut autumn-turning birch trees.  I used cruder oil pastel, so as not to get too anal over facial details, and the face is left interestingly suggestive and open.  He is very beautiful and strong, he stands in a relaxed and flowing way.  He’s a bit like Christ among the thorns.

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Perhaps Hiawatha …

19 – 21 September 2002

Interesting email from Vamadeva Frawley, in response to mine.  Ganapati Muni is up to things again.  I’m very pleased about this new correspondence, and hope it will go on.  Vamadeva has the highly-trained knack of reflecting or boiling down deep ideas into succinct sentences to ponder.  (see http://www.vedanet.com)  He sent me also Chapter One of his new and more poetic work on Agni, all in very short, simple and profound paragraphs… …  and in the post arrived a CD from my friend in Hungary, of an Italian/Mephistopheles opera she’s copied for me – perfect to finish drawing my India Tarot No.15 with … !

… The Grail touches earth.  In Botticelli’s last painting, The Nativity, angels embrace humans right down in the strata of the demons.

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Correspondence:  Gautam and Rohit – 24 September 2002

“Dear Jane, we think the devil is the most handsome devil we have seen to date.  No change in him at all.  Should the bodies of the women be more defined in a voluptuous sense, or are they OK?  This card is looking fantastic.   With regards, Gautam”

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Watching Krishnamurti (1) – 1967

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Krishnamurti in the tent at Brockwood, 1974

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This is the first in a series of impressions of Jiddu Krishnamurti.

I was exposed to Krishnamurti’s teaching from the age of 11, when my father became a student. 

When we were children, there were two things we mocked our father incessantly about.   When he arrived back from a London trip, we left for him, in the front door porch, cartoons of tangled high-brows sitting cross-legged with bubbles coming out – I MUST NOT THINK.  Some of the bubbles contained CND posters – another of my father’s commitments.   K’s bubble was blissfully blank.   We kindly allowed my father a reduced activity in his.

In his bookshelf among spines of philosophy, fruit management and violin playing, lay a very slim little volume – “Who Am I?”   This too, prompted roars of childhood mirth.   Inside the book was an old photo of one of those white-haired Indian saints, sitting on a rock with a kettle beside him.  He had beautiful deep brown eyes.  So did Krishnamurti.  I remember remarking this especially, and searching through the bookshelves for more.

Krishnamurti’s influence on my teens, gave me many existential difficulties.  After leaving school, I traveled with my father up from Somerset, to Wimbledon Town Hall for one of the early Krishnamurti gatherings:

September 1967

Even lavender passes into the air, in the end.  One should be brave enough to move all the time in tune with the present.   When I’m alone in the City, I look for what is behind, and my eyes are in front.   I should like to feel, and only then write or speak.

When Krishnamurti sits and speaks, the whole of him to his beautifully shined boots, quivers with his message – to Be.  It is as simple as that.  But we would rather make life difficult, and hide behind it.

My father sat downstairs, next to a friend of his called Ralph.  I sat up in the balcony among rich old ladies, earnest businessmen, young Indians and hippies, a few cranks and intense women.   Next to me, a man with a big nose in bright purple trousers watched, as I sketched.  We got talking about Art and God.  His name was Barry Fantoni, and he was more or less running the Sixties scene at the time, and painting a portrait of Beethoven.  We exchanged addresses and wrote some letters.  He became an intermittent but kindly friend.

Balcony, Krishnamurti gathering at Wimbledon, 1967

(“Barry” is just behind the Afro, to the right.)

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Shortly after, amid all the bustle below, a distinguished small figure with brushed-over silver hair and nut-brown, clear cut features, ascended the improvised platform.   This was Himself.   As the hush swiftly dampened the shifting crowd like an asbestos blanket, he sat down on a narrow chair, exquisitely dressed before a barrier of microphones, moved his hands a bit beside him, and waited.   This one little person concentrated all the Unity which was lacking in hundreds.

Then he started to speak.  Microphones, tapes, were adjusted;  then all was still, before him.

It was all familiar stuff … but from K himself, this time.  He is at peace when he has no fear.  I found it hard to stop thinking about everything going on, and to concentrate.  The essence radiated out before him.  I feel we are all diseased.

He only answered two or three questions at the end – mostly from an American moustache, who didn’t understand his concept of “discipline”.  Then he got up and walked down and out.   He never speaks for more than an hour.

The next day’s Talk, I sat downstairs.  I shut my eyes and his beautiful words probed my being.  He spoke of peace, violence and the gap between the observer and the observed.  He said there isn’t one.  When people asked questions, he only showed them that he had already answered them.

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The drizzle spat from the sky.  I love to associate certain areas of London with … Putney with Joe, Battersea with Ben – and yet how dare I, why must I, after hearing Krishnamurti speak of the paralyzing, destroying power of image and association?   No!   Sentiment is not worth sorrow.  Romance shines in every moment, if one is open.  I mustn’t be afraid to turn my back to the luscious past, for its glamour only bleeds to death.

Yet the torment, the sentiment, the turmoil, won’t stop.

September 1967

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A Poet & his Daughter 1968

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My adventure invites fellow travellers.  I am a poet, an artist and a seer.  I welcome conversation among the PHILO SOFIA, the lovers of wisdom.

This blog is  a vehicle to promote my published work – The Sacred India Tarot (with Rohit Arya, Yogi Impressions Books) and The Dreamer in the Dream – a collection of short stories (0 Books) – along with many other creations in house.  

I write, illustrate, design and print my books.   Watch this space.

Head Remove (Gently) … with Atlas, Douglas and Robert

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Head Removals (gently) 1972

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24 July 2012 – “Head Removals Gently” was a thriving business in west London, during our hippie 1970s.   Here is a head, stoned out of his mind, getting carried away from his Notting Hill pad – lost in his situation, and out to lunch.

But … remove the obstruction gently … from where I am – by seeing that there isn’t one?

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Atlas emblem

Atlas (see previous post) holds up the globe, but is also a book of flat maps of the wide world.   In the myth, Atlas held up the sky.  The sky is Atlas’s head … or no-head.  By the simple expedient of removing where he thinks his head is, Atlas is the Tree of the World!

Time is the rotating map of the world;  time is a ball of persons waking up anywhere;  time is in relationship NOW with many different phases, different lands.

There was once a time when at night the whole universe was dark and went to sleep.

Now, the lights are on all night.  For the global insomniac internet, the sun never sets.  It is always up in the sky for a friend as the tide of night travels …  round and round … like a skipping rope. The jumper in the rope is inside a kaleidoscope or cinematic lantern show.   I make and believe in my life-pictures, and get upset by them.

My Atlas emblem has the globe, with Atlas in full stress and preoccupation, and the full Moon with her own circle of time:  but also, sky and clouds are seen from above – the serene and relative timelessness of the Master plane.   In the sky near Atlas are little rose vortices, they are samskaras, thought-forms, life-spouts.

Atlas’s problem is:  putting the world on his head.   If he put on the world instead of his head, there would be no problem.   If I keep remembering to do this, it slowly clarifies, and begins to liberate me, to relax in any situation.

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In the lane, at Nacton.

The world is a Passing Place.

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What is my concern?  my stress?   Touching base, there isn’t one.   Foundationally, the world just turns upon her infinitely capacious axis, and my body has no rigidity.

Segments:  interior Orange:  beachball:  longitudinal vanes.

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Daffodils in Douglas Harding (From “The Dreamer in the Dream” by J.Adams)

Douglas Harding said we can bottom out our stress:   let it consume us fully, then fly away!   Stress is the pain-body of a person or of a country, family or culture.   The pain-body – as Ekhart Tolle says – builds up through a history of civil war and private abuse.   It cannot be ignored, but it can be seen, and allow it to pass through, and refrain from reacting.   Refrain from reaction, is Sadhana, and is what Jesus meant when he said Love your enemy and offer the other cheek.   It is ju jitsu:  space for the problem to throw itself through and disappear.  Refraining from emotional identification with the pain body, is Sadhana, and it doesn’t chill out overnight!

The principle is well upstream of any “fix-it” notions or pressures.   Refrain from emotional identification and reaction with the pain-body.    Keep practicing.

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Sky muscle earth

The muscle twixt earth and heaven, is Atlas!  This sketch has a bar of music playing through it.   A pianist, or a real athlete, is loose and supple, let-go.   A trained muscle is not a stiff one.   Don’t bother about any thoughts at all, which are not relevant to Here and now.

The more I can pack my problems into a “shorthand” category, like “the pain-body”, the better am I able to view them from upstream.   When I am personal, things are a mess;  yet the personality is crucial!    Egotism is incessant autobiography.  But the vessel is like a salmon, moving upstream.

Tackle it with zest, not distress.

Zest, humour and turn the thing on its head.  Imagination.

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At Nacton

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Realise I need exert no further than to STAND.  My simple understanding:  stand under.   Exertion beyond this, is excess and trivial.  Imagined conversations are excess and trivial – brick wall verbage I can’t get over or through.

There is only the plough of my underSTANDING, right now.   Field, furrow and seagulls.

Do not attempt to theorise or justify.   Head off the stress, by letting it pass through the chamber of love…  without nagging or snagging it.   The stress is just Life on my plate.

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But who and what is Y? (from To Be and Not to Be by Douglas Harding)

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I was wondering if my voice in my ears might change, when it goes deeper and waits.

Ideas do not form as word or voice, but as waves, silently.    Words might form a poet’s pattern a-tumble in the surf.   That statement sounded and felt a little different.   It has an infinite leisure.

Then remember Ramana’s feedback to Ganapati:  be in the root of the breath.  Where breath rises, this is tapas.  Where word rises, this is tapas.   Vichara … the mantric root.   Mantra is the ripple of sound, of water, of evolutions.

Ramana also said, no yogic effort is needed other than to ride the natural breath quietly, like a horse.

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25 July 2012                         SILENCE AND THE DRUM

Find silence.   No intervention or comment, otherwise, has any account.   The relief coming in from time to time, spreads like sunshine.   You know why.   I am going into new ground.   Let it be.

In Robert and Ramana’s silence, the world turns as it should.  Trust it, don’t shackle or try to pull it!  Let go my nagging conscience, the talker who doesn’t get heard.

The silence is the root of all mantras, samskaras and life;  detected bit by bit as the drum.

The silence becomes a mite stronger as I fall into it on the bus, and let the wheels turn.  I can’t stop the wheel from turning.  It turns out as it should.  Only the cloggy bits that lean on it, imagine otherwise.

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Robert:  “You are not what you appear to be”

Trust in Life means – at a profound level – giving up “magic”.   This cannot occur until a student is quite mature.  An essential stage of Sadhana is the tension of the magic, the waveband of spells and ways of conduct.   Till then, the spells are fine.  But they use energy.   I am a worrier.  Slowly their glamour fades, and I am left with Life without method or end.

There is, as Robert says, silence in which all teems and turns;  and speech in the face of that vast wonder, is impossible.  As I settle, there are many tiny tensions up and down arms, shoulders and spine:  let them keep sliding – like water off ducks’ feathers – to flow away.   Down.   Down to gravity and the unobstructed heart of the Universe.  Silence.   The mind cannot put up any signboards.

Rain.  The sky’s river, chuckling, dancing.

All is well.

“I am a hidden treasure, and I love to be known.”

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My adventure invites fellow travellers.  I am a poet, an artist and a seer.  I welcome conversation among the PHILO SOFIA, the lovers of wisdom.

This blog is  a vehicle to promote my published work – The Sacred India Tarot (with Rohit Arya, Yogi Impressions Books) and The Dreamer in the Dream – a collection of short stories (0 Books) – along with many other creations in house.  

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Twelve Rosicrucean Emblems – PART ONE & PART TWO

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A sequence of alchemical drawings, inspired by Franz Hartmann’s In the Temple of the Pronaos of Wisdom.   His little book describes over 150 signs and symbols from the heart of the Celestial Mother (collected in 1741), the divine Child, and Hermetic axioms. I planned to draw them one by one as Emblems, and make them into a book of meditations.  So far, only a dozen have been done, as they triggered other creative work.   Here they are now – beginning with a first-person “prelude”:

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A root image – together with the Sri Chakra Yantra – for the contents of this blog as a whole.

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This Reveals the Way/Road 10.5.01

The first Emblem – PRAENESIS:  A Ship on the open sea, with a floating anchor, and a star shining overhead, with the inscription:  Hac Monstrante Viam – “This Reveals the Way/Road”

A ship of souls.  A pilgrimage.  All my lifetimes and yours are passengers and crew. The anchor trawls the ocean Current:  the contact.  The star is a Hermetic Cross.

On and on upon the deep, the Quest seeks centre point.  The tug of anchor and of star is Self correcting, like the winds.

The drifting is an alert surrender.

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By all, through All  13.5.01

EMBLEM ONE:  An open Book, with the name MARIA, and a heart transfixed by a sword, with the inscription:  Omnibus in Omnibus – “By all, through all”

The Sword is pure light from heaven, piercing the earth of leaves (the pages) which is open like a flying dove at rest.

As above, so below:  heaven penetrates earth.  Fishes are ripples in the sands.

It is the same light, by all, through all.  All worlds meet;  sand, salt and sea;  sky in the open rock.

The birds are Akasha, or space;  trinity mysterium.  Everything is written in Akasha, but cannot be seen by earth-sense eyes.

Receive the incoming sea.  The heart of the book has countless pages opening along its spine.

The earth of leaves is an alchemical term for the prima materia – the garden we are given to work in, drenched and fertile with nitrates and the seasons’ humous.

Maria is the sea – il mare – and prima materia, Mother Earth.

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In Thy Valorous Strength 5.6.01

EMBLEM TWO:  A seven-headed Monster threatened with a club.  Inscription:  In Virtute Tua – “In Thy Virtue or Valorous Strength”

Act from the heart, by whatever means. The demons of despond and panic cannot be beaten by proxy – only from my Real centre of gravity, with commitment.

The weapon is gripped from the heart, from within, as itself.  Where it strikes, it is armed by the great Exorcist, JHShVH, Yeshua.

In Thy valorous strength, not mine.  Mine is not the Strength.

“May God be resurrected and his foes perish- As wax melts before fire, as smoke is driven by wind – So may all who hate the Lord flee his sight – And the just rejoice!

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The monster with seven heads is personal egotism or inflation.  Strike at its root or tail, with Self-enquiry.  Defend the sanctum, create a shield.   Use both hands.

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What is not Lost …  10.6.01

EMBLEM THREE:   A closed and sealed Door with an Angel attempting to open it.  Inscription:  Signatur ne Perdatur – “What is not Lost”

The door is a membrane, like the inner ear.  The Angel has tools, but does not force the door.  The keyhole is the extent of vision the sleeper has, peeping through the Tree of Life.

Buried treasure.  Three knots in the wood suggest three worlds, or levels of entry:  ways of perception.The angel sees through all our matter and mass and concerns, being the space of atoms.

The door frame is the fourth Hebrew Letter, DALETh;  the Above is rooted in Below. The grain of the wood flows like water, a river, Yetzirah the World of Formation; the psyche.

The Angel of Beriah (World of Creation) wears the Atef Crown of Light.

On the Tree, the Sefira Daat is where the Angel’s dimension steps through into our consciousness, projecting shadows onto space and time.  It marks also the capillary interchange by prana into the physical blood cells and body, as Consciousness embodies.   This happens in the womb, and in every moment of life.    Daat is emphasized in the little Tree of Life sketch which seems to grow out of the back of the sleeper’s neck.  By the door frame near the top, is an owl creature or demon – a projected shadow from the Light of Angels’ feathers, onto the world.

The Angel’s wings are great waves of galactic ripple, through planetary systems.

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After I drew this, I dreamed my front door was irreparably broken in, during the night, right round the frame;  it had been replaced without support, and just hung there.  I took out some loose bricks.  I was afraid, but I found some lost things – a pair of child’s shoes.  Then I saw my demon, a black, lame, prehistoric creature;  the Shadow limped away over the fields, sticky, prickly and woebegone.  Compassion for it.

Life being cracked open.   Time comes.   The heart shape is lying asleep in the ground, in the Earth of Leaves, like an embryo in the womb.

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As Dawn Breaks through Tears 12.6.01

EMBLEM FOUR:  A Landscape representing an Island.  The sun rises and the stars shine.  Inscription – Aurora ab Lacrymis:  “Dawn breaks through Tears.”

The rising sun strikes his dark material from sleep, like a spark on flint.

It seems that coal rises.  Carboniferous life is the ancient island, dark against the light, the ancient residue of trees, melting to gold, to fire, like the young volcano off Iceland:  ice and flame.

The sea is Consciousness.  The island is a heartbreak.

Tifareth is a ray striking the rock.  It might be a precious gem:  our Stone, or Self.

There are birds of liberated energy or emanation:  the ions which are aeons – the current of static electricity.

There is a ship of souls:  a movement, journey or quest.   There is a lighthouse: a soul on the rock.

The water in the foreground, is rippled like deep sand.  When we clear the view, like rubbing the sleep from our eyes, or polishing silver, the Sun and Galaxy (stars) are seen together.  All is One Mater, materia.

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 Bitter Sweet 29.12.01 (Ramana-birthday)

EMBLEM FIVE:  An Orange-tree bearing Fruits, of which the inner part is sweet while the rind is bitter.  Inscription – Dulce Amarum:  “Bitter Sweet.”

Nostoc – the alchemists’ dew which is gathered at dawn.

The “pith practice” of alchemy is called the Fountain, and in the east it is Kundalini yoga.

The Orange is a mercurial tonal vibration from the Sun.  It transmits warmth and energy.  On the Queen Scale Tree of Life, Hod (reverberation, the Glory) is orange.  The Zodiac has twelve juicy segments.

Citrus fruit is tart at the root and in the pith.  Taste and flavour:  Malkuth, our ground.

Amor = Love.  Amar = Bitter.   These are working opposites.

Tifareth is a seed in the very centre of the tree, right in the white pith or core, at the dawn skyline.  The Heart of the Tree is where all its branches open.   Yesod is where the roots form together a base, and clasp the ground … like a child in utero.   Plant your treasure.

The year’s ending is the seed of Light;  in deepest Yin, sages are born:  the darkest hour has the deepest light.

The sky has ripples of light, like sand crescents: the vesica pisces – fish of Pisces.

The roots are Karmic strands and lifetimes drawn together into the lens which is this Tree.  Where they form one stem, a Yesod or personality grows, at ground level.

“Let us form a vessel to catch the dew of heaven” – to focus an individual, a group or a School.   The parents are implied, in full.

Deeper in the sub-soil is the Kingdom, Malkuth, the host of our interconnected bodies of Light.

The mist above the roots of sunrise – Twelfth House – is the aura. Tifareth is where the aura interfaces/becomes the Malkuth of the Beriah tree – the branches of heaven.

It is universally, a capillary process, both ways.

The citrus orange in earth looks like a ring, like a serpent eating its tail:  the DNA.

This was the first new Emblem in the series – after a long gap – having done some Grail study, and “fountain practice”.  There are thoughts of the One – the Tzaddek wherever on earth – who holds the Axis of Consciousness for this age.

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 Sweet Savour:  Cube of Solomon  2/3.1.02

EMBLEM SIX:  An altar with a fire upon it, in which a heart is burning, sending out a sweet odour.   Inscription:  In Odorum Suavitatis – “Sweet Savour”.

Here the notes are pictures, rather than words

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And here is the Second part of “Twelve Rosicrucean Emblems”:

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The Beyond within Appearance 4.1.02

EMBLEM SIX (2):  An altar with a fire upon it, in which a heart is burning, sending out a sweet odour.  “The Beyond within Appearance”

The rose and the star

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Lily of the Field 10/12.1.02

EMBLEM SEVEN:  A pure white lily in a flowerpot, standing in a garden.  Inscription:  Virginei laus prima pudoris – “Purity is the fruit of modesty”

Studies of the Tattvas – five senses and seven interior stars

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Solomon’s Lily in Earth 12.1.02

EMBLEM SEVEN (2):  A pure white lily in a flowerpot, standing in a garden.

The roots, bulbs and rhizomes are all our interconnected lives and stories.

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Companions of the Light around the Table in the Flower 13.1.02

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Discrimination 2.2.02

EMBLEM EIGHT:  An Angel separating wheat from chaff by means of a Sieve.  Inscription:  Dimittit Inanes – “Renounce the chaos of irrelevant inanities” (NB I do not have latin, and am guessing from the dictionary – help with this and Emblem Seven and the next three titles, would be appreciated!)

The sieve is a Ring of Time, an orbit, a zero.  Through its mesh, the bread of life is sieved.  The watchful Angel is planted in the landscape of all our lives;  the sieve is a lens, or medium within which forms a crucial awareness of our destiny, and how and where to act and what not to do.

The landscape integrates cosmos, fields, pebbles, flowers and watery ocean patterns:  those are all types of soul.   Birds fly into infinity.   Horizontal and vertical planes intersect and flow.

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Solomon’s Seal

EMBLEM NINE:  A Ring with a jewel, exhibited upon a table.  Inscription: Honori Invincem.  Perhaps “Honour is Invincible” literally.   This and the next emblem were drawn at a much later date, some years apart.

The seal of Solomon containing the Cube of Space, rests on the rivering grain of the wood, the seas, shells and sky.  The jewel is extracted from nature, from the natural state, and developed, undergoing hardships along the way, like humanity.   We are talking of a process of centuries, millennia;   yet alchemy is a quickening, an acceleration of our themes of loss and rediscovery, throwing our life’s activity into high relief.

The jewel and the rivering table, are two views of Time, juxtaposed.

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 Atlas 14.4.08

EMBLEM TEN:  A Globe illuminated by the full moon.  Inscription:  Plena sibi et aliis.

My journal of that day says:  “Creative insight applies to life. (a struggle).  My task is to draw it.  Drawings help. Drawings embody the light.  The Emblem Ten drawing – earth globe, moon, moon’s etheric aura around the planet – is  Earth bound – the World. 

“In this illustration, Atlas (muscle man) holds the world on his shoulders. He is the trunk of the world tree.  Strange eye-rose spirals emerge near him.  They are Time and samskaras – births of the mind.  The cloudscape is as seen from a higher plane;  the full moon and the composition do not suggest a linear mode, but a sphere – the Yin Yang interplay, the near and distant points (which are circles) of light and darkness.

“All is illumined.  The full Moon has a crescent umbra.  The Earth has wrinkled continents – Indian ocean faces – note the burden of the mountain range watershed, which wrinkles its Himalayan nature through Arabia, Turkey, Caucasus, Greece, Alps …  our problem of civilization perhaps;   the itch, the Mediterranean rift of cultural activity … an impression of weights.

“What is suggested here, is a global consciousness beginning to replace a local “tribal” consciousness.

“Atlas is the philosopher, Gaia is his brain, a whole planet is on his shoulders!   Actually he is headless.  The face is the front of the brain.

“My latin dictionary is NO help for the inscription, Pleni Sibi et Aliis.

“Nothing as yet on polar alignment … but managed to draw an alignment/core of approx thirty degrees through North Pole, Finland, Istanbul, Nile, Zimbabwe and East South Africa to Antarctica, taking in the longitude curve.

“Mediterranean is like a hot centre or whirl-spout mandala.   This drawing developed the way it has, with no fixed plan, except to draw my globe without the Americas for a change …  it didn’t take long.”

IMPRESSION today of Atlas:

I chose this image to draw, which combines a potentially peaceful scene, with utmost stress and weight bearing.  2008 happened to be a somewhat trying year for me –  between a rock and a hard place!

If Atlas agrees to be an ornament, he might relax inside his pillar.    If he looks carefully, he might find his ears are wider apart than he can ever stretch his hands.  His head is space for the world and all the universe, to Happen in:  a universal axis.  All he need do, is remove his head gently.

How can anything “work”, until I find myself out?  What is the way Home?

Reflect on … how time was once a local village, rising and setting in a linear way.  Now time is a community of the dawn, around the globe, at all times this moment, a sphere.

As Douglas Harding would say, look carefully at WHAT this hand is pointing to … what is seen?  why, the emblem of Emblems:  empty for the whole wide world, to happen in!

The emblem of Emblems:  “Look for yourself”.

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My adventure invites fellow travellers.  I am a poet, an artist and a seer.  I welcome conversation among the PHILO SOFIA, the lovers of wisdom.

This blog is  a vehicle to promote my published work – The Sacred India Tarot (with Rohit Arya, Yogi Impressions Books) and The Dreamer in the Dream – a collection of short stories (0 Books) – along with many other creations in house.  

I write, illustrate, design and print my books.   Watch this space.

Mother Ganga in “The Sacred India Tarot” & Anandamayi Ma

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Copied from Rohit’s blog today – we were working on this, yesterday.  For me it is a landmark, it has relevance to my River theme.  I also found in the process notes, to my surprise, that this was when I drew Anandamayi Ma. 

The entire work was done transcontinentally, by email: Rohit the author and Gautam Sachdeva the publisher in India and myself in the UK.  For all our previous posts on the Creation of the Sacred India Tarot, visit http://aryayogi.wordpress.com

Rohit Arya_Sacred India Tarot#Creating the Temperance card

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Rohit comments – This card was not very difficult to choose but Jane has many interesting observations to make about the process: “ … … There is a clarity about the cultural bridging work which went into the SITA deck.  Plainly, it was being orchestrated from the upper and inner worlds.” 

CARD 14:  TEMPERANCE:  GANGA

Correspondence:  Gautam – September 2002

Dear Jane – herewith a passable reference for Ganga, which has a kind of Oriental flavour.  Rohit thought it might just help.   Regards, Gautam

Correspondence: Jane – 3 September 2002

Stand by for Kali Mark Two – on her way to you in the next hour or two.  Ganga has begun, and proceeds temperately.

 

Rohit’s Notes:

“The article I wrote will serve for references and context. Will send a picture too.  Please convey the fluid nature, the body that flows, of the goddess.  She travels on a crocodile.  The idea of Temperance is somewhat difficult to communicate in a Hindu mythical context, as everything is dramatic.  It may seem an unusual choice, but Ganga had to learn the lesson of temperance first, until she could be of use to the world.”

Correspondence:  Jane

”Am working on Ganga now, in the upper river, i.e.above Rishikesh – the elemental things, the balance.  I note her vehicle is a crocodile.  In Egypt these are considered very evil creatures.  Can you give me a quick view today, on how India sees crocs?  This one is quite small anyway, and a worthy agent for transmutation – she’s got to ride something.”

 

 

Correspondence:  Rohit to Gautam – 6 September 2002

“Let the problem with the crocodile be.  It is the equivalent of the dragon being bad in west and good in China, so we can go ahead with no problem.  Let the croc stay.  In any case, it is actually a makara, a primarily crocodile-like creature, Jane will understand if you forward this to her.”

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Temperance, Arcanum 14 in Jane’s Hermetic deck

 

Rohit’s IndiaYogi article – Ganga, the River of Salvation

To understand the river Ganga is to understand a significant part of India.  It holds a place unique in all the mythologies, theologies and beliefs of the world.  In no other culture has a natural feature assumed so much religious and psychological significance.  Sacred sites are many, but an entire river providing salvation not in the other world, but right on this earth – that is rare.  The Ganga is so interwined with the Indian imagination, that even for people who never live near it, she will always be the supreme river.  In such circumstances, it is not surprising that the river Ganga is also one of the most popular goddesses in India.

So central is the Ganga to the Hindu imagination, that all sects have an origin story for her, that reflects well on their chosen god.  The great trinity of Hinduism is intimately associated with Ganga.  She is described as the daughter of Brahma, the wife of Siva, and the actual melted body of Vishnu.

This multiplicity of roles happens, because no worshipper wanted to feel left out from the saving grace of Ganga.  For Ganga’s supreme virtue is that she can save you from sin. One drop of her sacred waters is enough to wipe out all the sins accumulated over many lifetimes.  One single drop of Ganga water on the cremated remains of a sinner, is enough to wipe out all his sins and gain him heaven, as one popular story goes.  There is nobody who is so sinful that he or she cannot be saved by the waters of the Ganga.  The Ganga is thus the ultimate in merciful mother goddesses.

Psychologically, the mere fact that the Ganga exists, has been a comfort to people.  For hope is never lost, there is no trail of sin so dense and impenetrable that the saving waters of the Ganga cannot magically clear up, into the path of virtue and salvation.

Contrary to unsubtle and hasty thinking, this notion is not an incitement to wrong-doing.  It is not a question of sin as much as you want, and then in the nick of time have a sip of Ganga water.  There are many stories, which refute the too-easy-salvation objection, and it has never been a significant or core belief of the Indian mind.  Ganga salvation is serious business, not a trivial dip in flowing water.  Of such arguments we will deal with later.

A typical mythical origin myth, almost a representative one of the genre, runs as follows:

The divine sage Narada was a great traveler, and he loved to sing lustily as he went along his merry path.  One day he came upon a group of extraordinary beings in a forest, who were severely wounded and writhing in pain that seemed to come to them in continual jolts.  The aghast Rishi stopped to help these beings in torment – whereupon they seemed to suffer even greater extremities.

Enquiry revealed the mortifying truth;  these beings were in continual pain because of Narada’s non-stop warbling!  They were the souls of the ragas he blithely mangled with his inept rendition.  Because he was a divine Rishi, the torment caused, was actually physically torturing them.   Narada promised on the spot, to never again sing until he had mastered the correct procedures and – presumably – taken up some voice modulation.  However, the immediate objective was to restore these poor suffering ragas to health.

They told him there was only one way.  The Perfect Singer, Siva himself, must sing the ragas:  that divine rendition would cure them.  It would also teach Narada how these ragas were actually meant to be sung.  Siva had no objections, but since the numbers of ragas he was required to sing, were vast – (Narada being a prolific singer!) – he made a request of his own.  He could keep going for such a long stretch, only if he had the Perfect Listeners to enthuse him and create the ultimate aesthetic ambiance.  Only when the singer was perfectly sure that his audience understood each and every nuance that he was exploring, would a song be a true experience.  For this, he wanted Brahma and Vishnu to be his audience.  They readily agreed, as Siva is the master of all the fine arts; and a concert given by him is a treat even for the Gods.

The ragas began to heal rapidly, as the Great God sang.  His expectations of his listeners were not disappointed either.  No matter where he went with his song, they were in perfect harmony with him.

Brahma noticed something extraordinary was taking place.  Vishnu had identified with the soft, melting notes of the song to such an extent, that he was actually melting away from his feet!   Brahma quietly collected the liquid Vishnu in his water pot.

Brahma’s split attention has thus qualified him as not the equal in aesthetic sensibility.  However, from the liquid he had collected, he fashioned a divinely beautiful girl, who because of the unique circumstances of her birth, hallowed everything she touched.   This was Ganga, and she was nominally the daughter of Brahma, as he had given shape and form to her.

Ganga lived in heaven, where her privileged status and unique powers made her turbulent and uncontrollable.  She was a creature of whim, and none could thwart her, for who could oppose the power of Vishnu?   Only the mighty Himalaya, or Himavan, lord of the Mountains, was patient , and good-humouredly put up with her antics.  She became a sort of surrogate daughter to him, surging in and out of his peaks and crags.

Soon however, matters on Earth had reached a crisis.  Only the saving waters of Ganga could restore the balance that had been upset.  The entire ocean had been dried up, and this wreaked havoc on the eco-system.  This catastrophe was the unintentional result of a good deed done by the Rishi Agastya.  Mankind was being plagued by a species of demons that were hiding under the waters of the ocean.  This was an impregnable defense;  they raided and killed at will.  The great Sage however, drank up the waters of the ocean; and the gods and heroes slaughtered the demons on the dried up seabed.   Agastya however, had inadvertently digested the entire ocean – he being prone to perform miracles even unconsciously.  Filling up the ocean was one task the Earth needed Ganga for.

The other task was caused by the sheer determination of a King of the Ikshawaku dynasty called Bhagiratha.  Many generations ago, the thousand sons of his ancestor Sagara had angered a sage, and been burnt to death by his angry glare.  The souls of these unfortunates were cursed too.  There was no heaven for them, unless the waters of the Ganga could be brought down to Earth from Heaven, to wash over their ashes – the very definition of impossibility.

Since the performance of rituals for one’s ancestors is a prime duty of ancient Indian kings, it became a prestige issue of the Ikshawakus.  King after king attempted to get his ancestors’ salvation by the practice of tapasya, but all failed.  Bhagiratha however, was one of those wills before which the Universe changes direction.  His tapasya became so formidable that Brahma finally consented to allow Ganga to descend to earth.  He warned Bhagiratha that the force of the descent would be such, that the Earth would be shattered unless Siva consented to receive this divine deluge upon his head, and thus break up the impact to manageable levels.

Jane’s Notes – 19 July 2012

This drawing (see below) does not actually belong to the Brahma-Vishnu-Ganga nexus, but to the Sivaic one;  but they share resonances, so it came to my mind and merges, as mythologies often do.   The drawing (done in 1999) is called “Parvati Pestered by Sages” and it depicts her tapas to win her dharma in Siva’s love;  the sages came around and tried to trick and undermine her Yogic practice, by telling her Siva was an old good-for-nothing.  She refused to listen to them, or accept their beguiling teachings.

The Ganga in this tale, falls from the Pleiades constellation (Krrtikas) through Siva’s Himalayan dreadlocks.  The pleroma of the world cracks open.  Indeed, Rohit in the book of SITA wrote: “She flows from the Himalayas, the most potent spiritual place on earth, to the plains of India, sanctifying an entire country.  The earth would have shattered with the impact of the Divine river without Siva’s intervention.  Yogis say, the guru performs the same function for the unwary disciple;  he controls the descent of transforming energy into portions that they can assimilate.”  That is true temperance.   Parvati, dark and comely, was the Daughter of the Himalayas.  Both tales therefore, blend the flow of the mighty River as it pours from the stars down the mountain passes, wild and untamed;  towards a stream of nourishment for all humanity.   Prof. Stella Kramrisch has described this with poetic magnificence in The Presence of Siva.

Parvati Pestered by Sages may also be titled, “Mother Ganga when she was a Wild Young Miss”.   It depicts the power and turmoil of divine forces as they reach our awareness, and before they become channeled into adequate expression.

The waters are unleashed from the glaciers where they were bound in stellar time cycles.

Ragas are wounded until they are properly sung.

I tend to view the Indian mythology as a whole, as this descent through the Himalayan watershed, to the fertile plains, the mudlands, and the sea, teeming with life.   Similarly my Hermetic Temperance above, depicts the Four Worlds of the descent, through Emanation, Creation, Formation and the Physical world.

Correspondence:  Jane –  9 September 2002

I sent you earlier a scan of Ganga which I hope receives ok.  It seemed to me on the screen to be a little fainter than the drawing itself, and to have lost some of the pinky browns in the background.  The drawing has no dark areas, and is more delicate than some of the others, but is in texture quite well ‘covered’.  If it doesn’t email well, I will will send by snailmail.

Correspondence: Gautam – 10 September 2002

Ganga well received – I really liked the no dark areas/light look … milky as a Way!  Today is Ganesh Chathurthi, the day Indians bring the god home to worship, let’s hope, being our trump card, it removes all obstacles in our way for the Tarot deck.  We were viewing all printouts of the cards close to actual size, and it looks very powerful.  Rohit had an idea of putting a Yantra on the reverse side, instead of the boring checquered print, what do you think about that?  Have a good weekend!

Correspondence: Rohit – 13 September 2002

“I love the look and feel of Ganga card, especially the little touch with the sage meditating, could be Ghagirahta, could be so many of the people associated with her.  The face is so wonderful, timeless, serene.  I just love it.  However, the fact that she is unornamented, makes her look like a widow in our cultural terms.  This card has to be “fixed” in that some jewellery upon her is imperative.  I did not think this needed stating, looking at the Saraswathi and Laxmi cards, but in all future cards unless specifically stated, we need jewellery upon the women.  Fortunately, this is merely adding to a drawing already existing, and not difficult to do;  there is no reworking needed.”

Mother Ganga: Temperance – The Sacred India Tarot

JANE’S NOTES – 19 JULY 2012

I now quote quite extensively from my writings during the creation of Sacred India Tarot Temperance,  because I discover in them, allusions to an interior Contact.  This is “phenomenally” relevant.  In the western School of Tarot and Kabbalah, Temperance is a path of probation, on which we learn to hear the “Knowledge and Conversation of the Guardian Angel” – the messengers of God.   Also there is a clarity about the cultural bridging work which went into the SITA deck.  Plainly, it was being orchestrated from the upper and inner worlds.

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Jane’s earlier Notes: 8 September 2002

I saw another being in my sleep this morning.  She was quite severe, and dressed in heavy sky-blue robes.  Across her brow was bound a horizontal fold, over the vertical side-falls of her head-dress or veil.  To each side of her seated posture, and at her feet, were living symbols.  But what these were, quickly faded.  I think this may be related to the book about Anandamayi Ma.

Later, another being appeared briefly:  not humanoid, but a round golden sphere or aerial disk like the sun, with maybe a white corona line? – something definite around it, and more living geometric symbols of depth and simplicity, which also faded.  Such types may be angelic presences.

12 September 2002

The Anandamayi Ma book (“Death must Die”) is really valuable in its intelligent and deep understanding of a real guru-disciple medium – it goes from strength to strength, and I marked many passages.  It is not my path, and the author suffers enormous and very difficult waves of entry into Indian spiritual and social culture, but it has shown me something of the esoteric background to Brahminism for instance; how the rules of caste guarded and nurtured the Sanatana Dharma;  the honesty of the struggling devotee, and the wisdom and Oneness and great kindness of Anandamayi Herself, are beyond question.  The guru-disciple relation is alchemical, but it uses a Person as catalyst.  And as the transcending Person mirrors that in the disciple which aspires, like butterfly guides the caterpillar, similarly the disciple’s own Person is one unending ache and bother, thrown into high relief.

13 September 2002 – MUDRA

This Himalayan Ganges river scene is inspired by the falling waters of Abhishiktananda’s realization in this upper region. The water foams from the melting sources of the Self:  the glacier, the hermit – pure nourishment from the gods.  This Mother Ganga also derives some inspiration from Ananda Mayi Ma.  Her right breast was showing, but I was asked to veil it with her hair.  The vases from which she pours, are tributary streams from Himalayan valleys into the Great River.  Ananda Mayi said, “Remember everything is God, you breathe God in and out.”

An email came this morning from Rohit to Gautam, about my Ganga.  He loves it, and the meditating sage on the bank behind her, and her timeless face, but says she has to have a few ornaments, otherwise she is culturally a widow.

Now who, a few days ago, was talking about sons and widows in relation to Mother Ganga and Benares?  Or where did I read it, with the uplift of connectivity to the Masonic Sons of the Widow in the western Mystery?   I don’t know.  I looked through the Anandamayi book unsuccessfully, for a reference.  There was such a beautiful “rhyme”.   The Sons of the Widow are discussed in The Great Work (a book of lessons on alchemy).

But the other day, maybe last week, when I was drawing Ganga in the River, and listening to Liszt’s Transcendental Etudes, the Rhyme came from someone, or some text bridging Indian and Western Mysteries, and is right now an un-named visual delight to me in the drawing itself, and the precision of the little meditating sage.   I copied the river and the sage on the bank straight out of this amazing photo (below)in the Maurice Herzog Himalayas book.  I knew the sage was somehow significant – Rohit confirms – as well as conveying pure Contemplation upstream near the glaciers – and in the nourishment of the whole Kali-Ramakrishna-Ganges context that bathes me now – the goodness that comes from India, without having to go there.  I can feel the song of it … the raga … but lost the words, or who they came from:   mountain ranges of mantra.

I think an Indian has taken a seat at my Table Round, to help me with that part of the world/dharma, because of the vigorous “pipelines” now ongoing with India Tarot and Self-enquiry magazine.  (A “pipeline” is antakharana, channeling a higher Inspiration.)

I remembered while in peaceful contemplation of Beauty at the Table Round (Kabbalah) that the ‘locks’ are also mudras, in the sense of gesture, or posture.  When you spiritually “lock” and become still – a frame – grace plays through you, grace is the picture unimpeded.  A specific stillness or asana is the portal to following the Inner Beings.  This is a beautiful understanding of the pipeline.  I first learnt about it in Dion Fortune’s Moon Magic.

Anyway, there’s been a requirement to draw Anandamayi Ma since the Ganga one last week, which she didn’t quite get into.  From Tifareth, I see her now with her shawl over her head, as in Douglas Harding’s story (it was she who started his paper bags), and with her hand forming a mudra in front of her chin, as in the cover photo of Death Must Die;  and so of course this morning must be drawn, and it can go in SE magazine, from my alchemy drawing-book.

Mudra: Anandamayi Ma

Jane’s Notes – 14 September 2002

The thought that is leading me now is that in the Western esoteric tradition we have our gurus and teachers, and they work on our I-thought yesod-ego(person) just as they do in India, but they are on the inner plane, and we do not necessarily know who they are.   Like with the manifest ones in India, the relationship is subtle and exacting, and the path to it is a stripping down of obscurities.

The device that stills my mind at the moment, is the graded colours of the Sefiroth and of the Tattvas.  Concentration on these colour sequences brings the point into focus.  By now all the Sefiroth colours are alive, sparkly and fiery.  I am not yet a year into this work;  it takes years through the preliminaries – remember this, and be at rest.  The Teacher is there, and leading you with the golden cord in the heart.  Breathe with him and her, in peace and joy.  The Teacher is closer to you than breathing – the Teacher is that thing that goes “ping” in the heart, like a viol string gently plucked … like that within the centre of Hildegard of Bingen’s mandalas.  He moves within and as you, and is vastly beyond you.  Such certainty of Hermes!   Recognition of the Inner Teacher and the commitment, must imply an act of surrender.  I will be shown how.   Remembered the idea of the “lock” or position of stillness, openness, in that frame.

India has definitely taken a seat at my Table Round.  Yesterday morning I drew Anandamayi Ma from the photo where she is making a mystic mudra (the lock) with her hand, from her Daat Tattva.   It didn’t come through so easily – because of working from photo – but it has arrived shining soft, and is going also in SE mag.  Worked flat out all day yesterday on SE creative details – utterly exhausted in evening, listened to tape of Lady Chatterley’s Lover, and to some Dylan Thomas, slept badly, too tired.  But the Dylan Thomas you can hear like passionate music, unknowing as yet the tumbling, dancing words, in wonder;  and it kindles the fire through the weary marrow, which sings and enables rest and sleep.  The book about Anandamayi gave and refreshed a deep understanding of India.  And then there arrived another email from Vamadeva Frawley.  He says, “Over the past few years I have been working with a great guru from Andra Pradesh, Sivananda Murty.  He is highly respected in India. Not only is he a master of Ramana’s teachings, but is a master of yoga and mantra with connections to Tryalinga Swami.  He is now in his seventies.  So such teachers remain, quite unlike the current western generation of pop advaitins.  Best wishes, Vamadeva.”

Mrs B and I call him “Binoculars” because of his single minded hill-man’s blue eyes and dismissal of any small talk.  This is the carrier of Ganapati Muni’s wisdom in the west;  the only recognized Vedic teacher or Shastri outside India.  I am very pleased to be corresponding with Binoculars, and must tailor myself to his Spartan economy of language.

The beauty of it is, that I don’t have to go to India, but the Indian connectivity is energized again – the rich cross-fertilization.  So this morning I see very clearly, how it works.  In India, as in the western mystery tradition, the real work isone to one – with a sage, whether celebrated or unknown.

Sense of relief that I am again interested in and nourished by the Indian antenna, because I really do work in the bridging of these cultures.  The antenna has been cleaned of advaita-pop tinsel, and I am aware again of the vast, refreshing secret tradition sustained, like I was in Ramanananda Swami’s little cottage at Arunachala … the fraternity.  That’s why, by hook or by crook I get so ferociously committed to each production of SE mag.  I feel each time, the Companions who oversee it, gathering together into it, and the new life and purity it develops.  I put in two very funny stories by the mountaineer Frank Smythe, a snipped-down child-Krishna/cow Bhakti sketch, and Douglas Harding’s story of how Anandamayi Ma started him off on the paper bag.

As the west is unaware of the power and purity (in small numbers) of its own esoteric tradition, so is India unaware of its own.  The Gurus who hit the public eye and draw large crowds and become famous (and some of them corrupt) float about on the surface, in the age old convention of the land, and temple circuits.  They are petitioned for miracles.  The real work is done in ashrams off the beaten track:  in sadhus on the banks of glacial Ganges;  in their inner-plane Teachers, invisible or materialized.  Most of India nowadays is caught in the thrall of materialization.  The ageless wisdom slipped through the fence, to be much misrepresented in the west, but here and there taking perennial root.  “Guru” means “dispeller of darkness”.  To find and see your Teacher, you must remove your own shades.

My irritated observation of advaitapops over the last two or three years since I stopped going to any of their satsangs, is that when you have “something” and you sit there as a mirror for all the punters’ highest expectations, wisdom starts to flow through you in response;  there is nothing like it.  Then they all go home and are hungry again.

… … Chat with Alan just now, about Sparkie’s darshan tonight at Caroline’s.  Sparkie is a disciple of “Gangaji”.  Alan doesn’t think there will be many customers, I’m going along with him after the Ramana meeting.  Alan thinks Sparkie is a missionary, but the truth is (I said) the London advaita crowd has settled down happily with its home grown Roger Lindens and Nathans and Tonys, they’re all doing it for each other as companions, we’re British, we don’t need anyone from abroad.  “We won the War!” said Alan.   Hurray!

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Yeshua and Magdalena

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The Last Supper

This was inspired by the Chalice and Blade symbol in The Da Vinci code some years ago.  The core of this book, which moved me, is that the Grail is not an altar to posses or seek in isolation, but an open and eternal secret in the ethical art of life and love.  The same invitation is in Dan Brown’s other thrillers also.  Leaving the centre empty, so the light flows in – is the Grail!   The mystery is in the heart of life’s family, around which the world buzzes.  It grows a Seal of Solomon, the lily in the field;  and for me, no more need be said.

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Yeshua and Mary

This, and the portraits which follow, was commissioned by Anne Dorcas in Montreal, in 2006, within a series of the Ascended Masters.  The Hebrew “Yeshua” spelling is JHShVH – which means “JAH Liberates”.

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Rabbi Yeshua

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Our Lady:  Shekhinah

 From Matteo di Giovanni’s Madonna of the Girdle, in the National Gallery

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Yeshua and Magdalena

“Magdala” means in Hebrew a tower, and in Alchemy and Kabbalah, a vessel to catch the dew of heaven.

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Mary and Gaia

An “Earth” meditation – our global community

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Archangel Rafael

God’s Messenger.  This drawing was done a little earlier, at the same time as The Last Supper, above

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Jesus (in the distance) by the Sea of Galilee.

 These two sketches were done in about 1968.  See also my poem When Yeshua went up the Hill to Pray, in the earlier blog, “Portraits and Poems of Eclipse to Ramesh – a Revision.”

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“Loaves and Fishes”

Yeshua breaks bread with the outcasts

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Madonna and Child

Copied from a book of Renaissance art when I was about 7

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Portraits & Poems of Eclipse for Ramesh – a Revision

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A revision of my earlier post, "Poems of Eclipse for Ramesh & 
Wayne", to update the verse formatting.   
These were written in 1999:  a sequential dialogue of Ramesh's 
Advaita teaching with the ongoing difficulties of life. 



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   TO RAMESH

 I do not have to go anywhere else but here   
 to hold your hand, smile into your laughing   
    elder dove-hawk eyes   

 and thank you   
 for helping my understanding   
 rock steady; whatever rock   
    may roll,   
 nothing can alter the rock itself.   

 Jane loves mountains and rivers.   
 Mountains and rivers   
 move within the people   
 and break the outline of her heart.   

 Who is jane, indeed -    
 the projectionist - the   
 indispensibly inefface-able   
 Tarot card in her long floating dress ?   

    No matter.   
 The rock is that   
 as well as the mountains and rivers.   

 Companionship when the outline   
 which separates us, breaks   
    is indescribable.   

 Companionship   
 when there are no persons   
    is indescribable.   
 The companion ship of being   
    is indescribable.   
 The companionship of no earth, no trees,   
 no people and nothing to think or see or be   
 in any direction, is indescribable   

    naked of every sight   
    and containing everything.   

 Such is tantra, web of the universe,   
 the sparkle of its mountains and rivers   
                                                      11 July 1999


  A high tide at Alet in Brittany
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      WHEN YESHUA WENT UP THE HILL TO PRAY

 Thunder draws the bow   
 across a barometric current.   
    It shouts.   

 Thanksgiving trembles in   
 my string when she is tuned,   
 like light from primrose spilling   
 bright stars in a grassy bank,   
 dazzles the camera, a blur.   

 Wild flowers are light sources.   
 They answer the sun.   
    They pulse.   
 Bluebells in a photo, fade   
 to a hint of amethyst,   
    too bright.   

 See how we connect   
 through what we   
    do not see.   

 When YESHUA went up the hill to pray,   
 leaving his lambs asleep,   
 he rested from the multitude.   

 In the soul’s deepest rest,   
    as Eckhart says,   
 is prayer which is silence,   
 making the primrose shine.   
    It shines because   
 there’s nothing to stop it shining.   
    And nobody.   
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      RIGHT ANGLE CROSSING OF NODAL RIVERS

 Certain types of stress   
 may be removed for good,   
 but what remains is variable   
                    (as Swami Liquorman would say).   

 For instance: a relative integration   
 into the herd of sheep,   
 their concerns with wool;   

 For instance: release from the drama –   
 to clarity, peace,   
 but the gears still turn my wheel;   

 For instance: One who is free   
 recognises another,   
 unobtrusively.   

 A line of destiny shivers,   
 at crossroads. ‘Rivers’   
 renouncing the known   
 may in one another, drown.   

 Conception’s silence is the GAP   
 where streams of current   
 in one another’s wave, fragment   
 to an interference that doesn’t add up.   
 From the gap, as death exhumes,   
 a flowing mystery resumes.   
 What is your and my cross   
    of life? Awareness!   

 Shock plummets through   
 the shivering ship   
 reaction, flinching, from the nails,   
 strata sagging, breaking timbers,   
    as before sleep   
 sudden stumblings on the rock,   
 fog of nerve-ends jangling bells.   

 The secret of soul shock     
 is to soften it open.      
 Let it be. Let the alarm be not   
    walled up or out.   

 As Robert in Arizona used to say,   
 it is preordained while you lie asleep on the gears.   
 Awakening has no preview, nothing, no way.   
 No-one knows where the car might go. Who cares ?   
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    STONE IN THE RIVER BED

 If God removes a rock or obstacle   
 upraising the wave of standing-over,   
 the understanding coming strong, itself   
 rolls the rat that sat in the river, away.   

 So, what happens? Why!   
 The whole standing-over lot falls down   
 to the bed of the river, melts as   
 the ever it was, the river, the river, the river.   

 Dislodging a stone from the bed of a river   
 is a wondering weight to feel.   
 My language is not flowery   
(as accused)
 but applied, precision tool.   

 The words dropped in the gap   
    are not mine.   
    They come.   
 Then I polish the pebble,   
 inward casting, better to see.   
 The corner stone I yesterday heaved, and could not place,   
    and wanted to cast away,   
 today shifts into true, the treasure   
 exposed, the Stone.   

 See how the water rolls away, and on?   
 See water, stone, stone, water, wall of stone,   
 fluid, all of stone, cold, hand in water, solid current   
    presses my hand   
 just like stone, which it is,   
 flowing, chuckling, splashing, racing   
 river, mountain, stone, sky, space.   

 Hand in current, ‘cross the river flowing   
 imagines a solid surface, pushing it.   
 My hand, now rivering rivulet,   
 the current itself is showing.

 The standing-over wave resounds   
    high over the stone,   
 a curve of space and time and planets   
 into the hidden presence of stone,   
    tickle the stone,   
 guddle it like the sides of a fish,   
    tease   
 gently from bed if the time has come,   
 to chuckle and roll.   
 The current does that, not I.   
 Should I move before its time, one stone,   
 the nature of the river bed   
    is stones.   
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 Ramesh at Home - a sketch from life

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    FISH

 My standing-over sounds and choirs,   
 and cries out DOH RE ME   
 (from the depth we cry to Thee ...)   
 but a smoothly flowing   
 river, you’ll note, is quiet.   

 In this “write” a stone became   
    a fish.   
 No sound uplifts the hidden matter,   
    it swims,   
 receiving opening halls   
 of flow, upstream or down,   
 or across the stream, does not   
    resist.   

 Like a bird in the breeze, the   
 fish is aqua-dynamic,   
 may come to the surface, you see,   
 hello little fish, then gone again.      

 I don’t want to guddle this   
 fish or flip it onto the bank   
 for its natural element   
 is my teacher ;   
    but   
 open the root,   
 where I am right now.   

 My pipeline into earth   
 is not behind closed doors.   
                 Ah yes !   
          Ah yes !   
                   Got you ! ...   
                                 but let it go again.   
                                 Never seize or trap the fish   
                                   or it will die   
                                 and be your belly-concept only,  
                                   in all your dreams   
                                 a flavour far too strong for life.

                                 I think that’s   
                                 enough for now.   
                                                         7 July 1999

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 ramesh at home
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      EASE OF JUST BEING SHIFTED

 If you drop a rock into a pool   
 shakti rises, turns   
 it into a fish.   

 If a Fool patiently all day waits,   
 the Moon arises to the bait.   

 Weary, by noon’s end,   
 felt my dowsing around with fish   
    is foolish.   
 The leading role of my masque,   
 disapproving the task,   
 scolds my lethargy – not   
    a kind friend.   

                   Yet as   
 the bed where it lay, levels,   
 the Stone itself unravels:   
 a hollow that held   
 soft silt embedded,   
 the sky has seen.   

    I hope   
 that if my follying sits a-fishing all day still,   
 a High lunar Priestess will   
 my following entice, beyond   
 the fringe capacity   
 of my Foolish cap-&-bell capability   
    to “cope”.   

 Here in the living-room, meanwhile   
 My unsuspecting spouse   
 serenely contemplates within our house   
 his intelligent Companion –   
    quicksilver Knight by sleight   
    of holy Bishop, the Rook to pit   
 computerized ‘pon black and white – a Master pantheon,   
 in shades of courtly grey to dance , the winsome imp beguile.   

 My rocky river stone brought to rest   
 gently today, is only shifted   
 to an ease of being, solidity just   
 coming alive, watery bed sun-bright uplifted.   
                                                          8 July 1999
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Tarot Fool & Priestess

DOG DAYS AND FISH-HOOKS

When the pores close up   
and rain pours upon unforgiving stone,   
my tell-a-vision is left to herd   
the leaking word. 

Unable not to spin the top,  
gone is all I saw so clear   
to a blur or mere   
foolishness, mine alone.    

In the piglet's trough where they feed,   
how stupid indeed   
my words:  "Oh! now there's peace and light
on waves' crest, here in sight!"   
   
All my boast can see   
is troughs at sea.   
The way got blocked again with stuff half seen   
and over-workings on the screen.

Let it be -   
does the cog which clogs the wheel   
care what consciousness  
does or does not do today?   
If it is honest, it cannot miss. 
In service to ME, it is coffined.   
In service to Being, it is defined -  
a limitless clogged-up-ness.   

The way of American Al Anon hero   
paved with sonorous "Oh   
Mother fucks and Holy shits",   
with jovial laughter roars  
giving scant ear to choice bits   
of sentiment that blister at the oars.    
Salt of the alky tank, his sage sobriety   
helped reduce his popularity.   
The people went off feeling edified   
upon the wagon but   
a little sad.  

Cloud with brightness shining round or through the edge   
is my depression with   
tiny tasks of clothes and teeth,   
and a simple life's a weary hedge, 
toiling at my archival debt. 
I hate hot weather, I boil and sweat.   
Lonely?  Can't stop chattering?  monkey moans   
feeling bored, tired, fidgety, drones. 

Stuck.  Life too full - fool, foolish,  
heavy chatter.   
Stuck. And curious it is,   
alive and stuck, to own   
my issues. Personal behaviours   
are wearyingly irrelevant.  

When stuck, light floods in and chimes,   
There's nowhere to go.  
The way she feels obliged to spell it out   
at all times!   

The truth is stuck, stuck up and bored.   
Consider day after day this song   
crossing a river   
(no banks to board)   
with a staff, a poole, a pen to feel me along.   

Of what accord my tiny gleams,   
the triumphs few?   
Step, then step, then step, don't slip -   
foot forward, the view   
is walking -    
strange it is to be me, like being you!   
an insect, deep beyond belief.   
Nothing can "help" - not this   
writing, not a teacher, not anything.   

Life,   
I'm a ravening basket case.   

This to realize, awe inspires   
for nothing can help   
the water of life -   
no hope. No end in sight. No goal.   
No change. No charity. Why?  

This is real - not badges   
with sages upon them to wear.   
With no fantasy to prop 
my spirituality, what progresses?  
Ow! my ankle   
misjudged the hidden rock,   
tumbles into and as the flowing river!

Caught I am, as fish   
on the hook, this open-ness.

.8 July 1999

Devotion

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Water, stone

            PRESSURE POINTING

I found a pressure point   
in my left hand, whose sore signal   
probed, released   
a tingling trap in upper arm.   

Like this, a teacher   
gently penetrates the core.   
The kink slowly slow uncurls 
by ancient acupunctural science.   

Wherever the sore signal manifests,   
apply the gentle there, there -   
let it tell.   

Pull up the core with the seed.   
Your patterns bring you home. Honesty   
pulls up my taproot   
with the mouldering weed.   

Leaning on the points of life, that touch   
is unavoidable. I till the field for decades.   
The meridian comes out and up   
and seasonally discharges.   

There are parcels undelivered   
from the post-office of my   
Under-being. In sight is seeing.
Seeing doesn't mean seeing something.  
It moves the finger to write.   
I learned this, 
exploring tantra, art of touch, of love.   
Nothing in the web   
of days, months, years,   
changes, or gets better, or what ever.  

Touch continuously   
taps the combination   
here, there, everywhere, the same place.   
I have my ideas, but what are they? 

How can I see the ineffable   
except that it is   
through crest and trough?

11 July 1999

Ramesh at Gut Schermau    

        UNKNOWN FACTORS OF FASCINATION

Loving you in the being-with way, 
could, through frameless window   
touch him, here and now! 
Our separateness is a myth.   

The unknown quantum A appears in B   
through souls C, D, F or X,   
like electron's double rotation.   
Positive and negative "spin"  
through virtual and manifest seas   
are our polarised probables.

WE KNOW NOT WHAT WE ARE - (but are "known"...) 
and I certainly am not those   
crotch-forks in the street   
going to parties, to dimly drink   
unanimous uni-formity.   

What am I?  Which hidden part   
proliferates, up-rises, ripples?   
Which of you, within those I see,   
seeks out and touches me?   

Under the ground 
the life sparkles, warms,   
is husbanded in ways   
we cannot conceive.   

Indifferent to the container,   
and spilling unique into each and every One, 
each and every one thinks he or she 
begins or ends!   

and we play these unknown factors,   
ciphers of fascination to one another   
in T.S.Eliot's four quartets   
till we close the book -   

the mystery breaks here on the beach   
in wave after wave after   
wave after wave unending   
from the mist: out of dingy daily mist.   

If a gentleness comes through the probe   
upon that place, why not?  

Who cares if I get tired and sore   
and obsessive over tasks   
and way the wrong things?

11 July 1999

 

Ramesh openly

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See also the earlier blog in this series – “A big Peach of Yin and Yang –  Advaita Poems”

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